Ramblings

Read this the other day and wanted to share:
"We witness a miracle every time a child enters into a life. But those who make their journey home across time and miles, growing within the hearts of those who wait for them, are carried on the wings of destiny and placed among us by God's very own hands."-Kristi Larson
I don't know who Ms. Larson is but she sums up this adoption pregnancy perfectly. That little quote is for all our currently adopting soul mates.
No news really except that we can be expecting some news soon. (?!) That is an update in the world of international adoption I am afraid.
Standing by for a possible stand by. etc., etc.
I saw a t-shirt the other day that read," Yes, we are still adopting. No, we haven't heard anything". How true is that??
I compared this "pregnancy" to our first adoption with Shawn as, tenuous. With Shawn, it was as if we had a normal, healthy pregnancy. All the fears and anxieties yes, but happy and excited none-the-less. And exactly 9 months even! This time we almost had a miscarriage. So now we wait with a heavy heart some days wondering what will go wrong. It is an uncomfortable blend of excited but not too excited, hopeful but guarded, happy for the chance but sad we may still lose it. I have experienced incomplete pregnancies followed by a wonderful pregnancy and birth of my daughter. I have experienced a perfect adoption followed by a topsy turvy one we now currently pursue. The wings of destiny might be flying with our child in them right now. It is that chance we are pursuing. There are parents that would trade with us in a heart beat for just the chance. Our son needs a brother, we want another child, a child needs a home, grandparents tell us their grand kids are what keep them young and give them a reason. Other hopeful adoptive families look and watch and think, maybe if they can we can. We are not giving up for those reasons plus a few dozen more. The biggest one is a 3 1/2 year old boy 23 hours away who I can only picture happy, healthy and running with his new brother in the yard. I cannot fathom the alternative.
An family currently adopting wrote that they watched several orphaned children climb some stairs at the orphanage. They hugged their newly adopted daughter a little tighter I am sure as they watched these motherless children walk away and thought what we all think,"What if...?".
Look at Shawn then and now. What if.......